Christmas was extra special this year because I was with my special someone. Who would have thought that us crossing each other's paths was even possible? I was happy and special and I have never felt those feelings in a long time. Does it have a happy ending? Of course not! It ended before I even got back in school. This is just too difficult to handle, a lot of issues plus at that time, I really didn't know what I want and both of us are too paranoid to even pursue it. Now, we're friends and see each other every day. It was a good experience though, to find out that I am still capable of loving. It made me feel mortal. hahaha! This might be the most shockingly absurd experience I have ever had.
Now I'm still going on with my life. My national board stuff has been bugging me for months now and I really think it's time to just sit and write something for it. That will hopefully happen tomorrow. Then, I'm taking the last few classes I have for my master's degree and hopefully, I could graduate this september. I am sooooo tired of doing this and hopefully next time I'll remember that online classes are no joke. Writing papers every week and answering discussion questions have been consuming my weekend for the last year. I really want my weekends back. Lastly, I have online teaching that will hopefully start this spring. That, I cannot even talk about right now. So in the event that I breakdown or something, you know what caused it.
I have postponed my trip to the Philippines to 2010 because I really want to finish school this summer. I am hoping that either mom or Marie can visit me during christmas of this year. Yup, I'm still hoping that it will work out this year.
For the most part, working too much is stressful yet rewarding. I love to work because it gives me security. I also feel like in everything I do, I learn a lot of things about me, my job or the world in general.
It's a week before my 31st birthday and I don't even know if I'm going to be happy that day. I wish I could spend it with people that I love. I don't want it to be an ordinary day like I did New year's day. There are a lot of things I am thankful for and I'm just grateful that I am living my life to the fullest.