yehey! tapos na pasko. hirap! una sa lahat, nagiging senti mga tao lalo na yung mga matagal mo nang di nakikita. Kakabasa ko lang ng blog ng kapatid ko and although nabaliw ako sa kakabasa dahil sa mga linya sa letters, naintindihan ko naman sa awa ng diyos.Yup, pero yoko umiyak. That's one thing I don't like about not being there with my family. Nakahold ang emotions ko palagi. And of course, I don't like it. I need to cry sometimes. Lagi kse kong malungkot dito. I know na khet anong gawin ko, I can never be as happy as when I was still in the Philippines. I tried to treat some people here like they are family but in truth, some of them don't give a damn about me. I'm cool with that since they don't know the real me. And they will never have that chance since the first step to knowing me is to convince me that you care. Every now and then I spend some time with my dad ( like now) just so I could have the closest thing similar to what I used to have in the Philippines. We try to make the most out of it although lagi naman syang may pasok. Ususally I am just here sa bahay, tumatawag sa pilipinas o kaya nagcocomputer o kaya nanonood ng tv. Pero ok pa rin sa kin yun kse I also need abreak sa trabaho. Nung christmas, we went to alot's house. Si alot ang nagpasok ng trabaho sa dad ko. Syempre buong pamilya ni alot nandun at close naman si dad sa kanila talaga. Pero I felt like an alien talaga kse lahat sila magkakamaganak. Pero ibang klase rin si alot kse pilit nya kong sinasama sa mga games, maglead ng game, kumanta, magpapicture, makihalubilo. I liked that. So okay na rin, sige. Tapos nagyaya na rin ako ke dad umuwi kse bored na ko. Weird pero sa dalas kong manood ng TV dito mas gusto ko pang gawin yun kse magparty. Maybe I am not used to being with people anymore.
So nammimiss ko ba mommy ko at si marie? hellleur?????? of course. Lahat ng makita ko, from tv shows na pinapanood to taong nakikilala, wala na kong inisip kundi mommy ko at si marie. Wala na nga kong bukambibig kundi sabi ni marie, sabi ni mommy. I miss my mom and my sis. Kaya nga nakapagdesisyon na ko. Uuwi na ko ng 2006. That's final. Nagawa ko na gusto ng pamilya ko. Ako naman ngayon. I want to live my life. Yup, I'm throwing this big chance because this is what I want. Tanga na kung tanga pero come to think of it, sobra akong takot mamatay dito sa amerika kse parang walang nangyari sa buhay ko dito. walang significance. OO nakakatulong ako, fine. Pero there's more to life than having a job. HIndi na ko tao, robot na tingin ko sa sarili ko most of the time. Walang inter- and intra- personal relationships. So uuwi na ko. 

hehe!ulam kong paborito. $4=tilapya, $1 salted egg. mahal nyan but it's worth it!yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyy! 

yup nakapantulog si buddhee.pag gising nya tumakbo sya sa labas at nagpapic na naman sa tatay nya. 

ambon ng snow. unti lang. 

yosi break namin ni dad. 

my funny dad. gwapo noh! 

marie, ito yung sinasabi kong gusto ko kunin kina dad. Di ko nga lang alam kung pano ko bubuhatin. 

kelangan ko lang talaga ilagay to kse inggit ako sa tv nilang malaki. 

Dad with other members of Alot's family. 

This is Alot's family and me. Jan kme nagpasko ni dad. 

obviously nagkaluray luray ang adobo ko...pero masarap naman e...at first there was too much water then I decided na bawasan then timplahan ulit. Masarap yan pramis! I'm sure my dad will like it pag natikman nya. bukas try ko naman magtinola. 

This was what I ate for lunch. My own version of adobo (God knows how much effort I gave to make this one plus long distance calls to my mom), itlog na pula then kanin plus coke. And to think that I called my mom when it was 5 am there just to make sure I made this one right. I'm glad I did.  

a better shot of my boots. Love them boots! 

mas malayong shot to see my entire outfit. Yup, I was in my sleeping clothes when my dad and I ran outside. 

snow sa may wendy's. 

snow pic pa ren. Hey, I waited for this moment for a long time! 

yosi sa snow pic. I swear I didn't feel cold while doing posing for this shot. Excited ako mashado e. 

Call me mababaw but I love taking my pictures in the snow. See, this is what happened: my dad came home from work and when we were on our way outside to smoke, i saw from the window na nagssnow so I immediately grabbed on my camera and asked my dad to take some pics.Poor daddy, he was tired from work, sleepy and very cold pero he still took my pictures kse he loves me. Hehehe! and yes, I'm a spoiled brat. KAsehodang nakamickey mouse shirt ako and some yellow longsleeve-shirt, pajamas and suede boots, picture pa rin. Can't wait for tomorrow's pics! 

ito talaga sa labas pa rin ng pinto nina dad. di ba ang lapit ng walmart? As in tumawid lang kme kanina to buy some batteries for my cam. it is very convenient...nga lang, la akong pera. 

some more snow sa labas pa rin. obviously I couldn't go too far. Sa labas lang ako ng pinto...barely. lamig noh! 

some snow sa labas ng apartment nila dad. 

this was taken when they picked me up from the airport. Oo gutom na po ako nyan so we immediately went to a 24-hour restaurant. See the snow behind me? 

my winter boots. love them! 

this me in my pambahay. Syempre ginaw pa rin even inside the house. 

ito po ang mga humamon sa kantahan kagabi. Syempre nanalo kme ni dad.